Kiera Roxanne

A girl whose dream is to retire.

“You’re a pain the in ass but I just can’t get enough of you. Though the truth is, you’re the best thing God has ever given me.”

—   BFF. 

Everyone always leaves. I hate it. I didn’t want him to leave.

He did. Every day. But he always returned. I’d wait all day for him, constantly refreshing my mind like a message feed, hoping for his return. And then when he did my mind would sparkle in delight.

And he would smile at my reaction.
And I would smile at him.

—   Ella Smith

You…snuck into my life. Snuck in right passed all my defenses. In a time when I was confused and unprepared, you could have taken advantage, but instead you helped me and slowly earned my trust.

And then, shocking to me, my love. I spent the entirety of my life denying the existence of anything other than calmness inside me and then you appear and you just…completely tear apart that facade. First I was angry, then confused, and then? Well, then I decided that I didn’t care.

I wanted you. I want you. I want you forever and with this, hopefully marriage is a start to forever for us.

—   Winter to Juliet

(Source: askthewintersoldier)

1. Do not kill yourself. Killing yourself is very messy and your mother will cry over you. It is not beautiful or brave, and even if it was, you will not be around to see that.

2. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.

3. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.

4. He is going to break your heart but he’s just another male human who finds it hard to deal with Mondays, too. So in a month you’ll wake up and you won’t even remember that little scar on his knuckle you kissed.

5. Don’t spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.

6. Don’t fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.

7. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry and think about that boy again. It’s healthy.

8. Victim complexes are not attractive. Boys and girls will not date you because you are sad. They are not going to date you and kiss your aching bones and cure you of your dragging depression. Wake up. Take a bath. Do your hair. Be attractive.

9. Sadness is not poetic. Depression is not beautiful. Laying in bed all day and eating too much is lazy and disgusting and it is not tragic or pretty. Get up. Go outside. Let the sun warm your bones. Live.

10. If it makes you happy, buy twenty of it. Dedicate your life to it. Print it on tv shirts and collect things and draw art of it. Do not care what people think. They are the unhappy people you need to avoid. The abuse they will hurl at you is painless compared to how sad they are. Pity them. Remain happy.

11. You are allowed to be angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.

12. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.

13. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep with you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.

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“I don’t think you’re leaving. I think you’re running. And what I can’t figure out is, are you running towards something you want? Or are you running away from something you’re afraid to want?”

“If I ever get around to boyfriend number two, he better have a busy life full of his own hobbies and goals, because I will not be someone’s reason to exhale. I have better things to do then entertain a full grown man when I’m not getting paid for it.”

“The real test of love is when a person—including you—can know your weaknesses, your stupidities and your smallnesses, and still love you.”

—   The Ethical Slut

“Everyone needs to hear someone say, “Nobody else will do. It has to be you,” sometime in their lives, even if it only happens once. Just once is enough. As long as you can feel sure those words were sincere, you can live through anything, no matter how painful.”

—   Kunihiko Ikuhara

(Source: saddest-summer)

“There is always one person who you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it always happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of those lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable… The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.”

—   Chuck Klosterman

(Source: saddest-summer)

“Because in the end, you won’t remember the time you spent working in the office or mowing your lawn. Climb that god-damn mountain.”

—   Jack Kerouac

(Source: saddest-summer)