Nothing’s tougher than feeling happy for the love that you have and at the same time, sharing the pain with the loved ones who lost it. At the end of the day, you know I’ve got your back when you need me.
I got a whole of things to say, to utter, to mumble… And just to scream my lungs out. Maybe then followed by a good sob in the midst of an awesome monster hug from the boyfriend.
I feel bad for everyone involved. I felt like crying last night because I really feel the pain that they’re going through, but I know I have to stay strong for the people around me.
I wish things were back the way it was. I’d do anything… ANYTHING for it to go back. Because then, everything was all smiles…and bliss…
The things people do for me really touch my heart that till right now, I can’t stop crying. I’ve never cried so much in my life from the love that I get from everyone around me.
Because before everything else, I thought humans & machines everywhere just wanna take advantage of me. Men of every kind, women of every kind. Even maybe mammals & birds for shitting on me.
2 months ago, I did a silent prayer & plead, "For once, show me love. Please."
Still crying from the monster hugs from the HHH housemates despite knowing that I don’t have enough meat to succumb to their gargantuan hugs. Still crying from Nora’s sweet flowers & cake personally delivered to my office to make everything better. Still crying from the love of a best friend, Lenny, who encourages me with a company of new found friends because she hates seeing me alone & wants me to be happy knowing she can’t be there for me all the time. Still crying from Liy’s phonecall in Juju’s car telling me how much I deserve this, how much she loves me & how much of what I did for her changes her for the better. Still crying from you for being such an inspiration, a sweetheart & the most sincere person I’ve ever met.
2 minutes ago, I did a silent prayer humbled, "Thank you."
Joyful tears you made me flow. But it’s all worth the emotions. For that, I thank you… each & every one of you.
To be honest, I’ve never been blessed with such great friendship & the perfection of the love around us. I have my gems, my lesbian vampire girls whom I truly love so much & there’s this new found friendship I have with the triple h housemates.
What’s awesome about us is that we never judge our best doings, our wrong doings & we’re never misunderstood because at the end of the day, our intentions to do things together are pure & sincere.
What I will remember for the rest of my life will be the ultimate monster hug the 8 of us shared before we left for home.
I can never ask for more than what they’ve been giving me in a short period of time we’ve known each other. This is what I’ve been looking for.
“In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding that they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place.”—Elizabeth Gilbert
I can’t deny I have feelings for you. You’re the only one that make me smile like a foolish girl & to be honest, it’s been a long time since someone last did that to me.
But, I can’t lead you on for the only fact that you’ve emotional excess baggage that you need the immigrations to clear before getting across the border to be with me.
I love you enough to last another lifetime because you’re very special to me in your own way & I am willing love you more for you to give me heartbreaks.
As of now, I’m enjoying every moment you’ve done for me after your confessions but life has to go on. If you can’t do something to prove of a certain commitment that you are willing to go through with me, I can’t promise you me.
Just remember, whatever happens, you’re still mine & I’m yours in our cosy little square box… Like we’ve always been since 8 years ago.