I should stop viewing others’ problems as a third-person because most opinions are just judgements. I don’t feel, experience, anticipate them problems because I’m not in their shoes. So a third-person advices based on judgements are baseless. I think.
Kinda hit me when a girlfriend told me, “If I’m in her shoes, I’d do the same.”
Ouch.
I never imagined to be in this situation. I never even expect this to happen. Come on, it’s somewhat against my principles to do something like this.
Like being the other woman.
The problem is, fortunately, I AM NOT THE OTHER WOMAN. Well, unlike others I know.
From the start this thing happened, I never felt guilty because I know, we both know that we didn’t do anything that is wrong because the rules never specify that what we did was against anything. So I can’t accept the fact that my friends think that this whole thing is an affair.
If it is, why am I not feeling like shit at all? I should be. My parents got divorced cos of that!
Also I realized that I shouldn’t be talking too much about what I feel about a situation if a friend decides to rant. Because I feel that my opinions are baseless. How do I know of a solution? How do I know of how they should react? Because it’s common sense that people should behave a certain way & that’s how they should solve a problem? I don’t even know exactly how they feel about what’s going through.. Likewise, they have no idea how I feel about things I’M GOING THROUGH.
Lesson learnt:
- I don’t wanna clarify anything anymore of all the things I did & decided upon of how I wanna run my life because at the end of the day, it’s my fucking life. I’ll rant, and you’ll listen unless I ask you for your judgments (opinions are just so overrated right now). So other than that, I’m just gonna shut my trap about who I meet, who I shag, who I fall in love with.
- I’ll be the attentive listener & friend that I’ve always have been. But I’ll. Just. Listen. At the end of the day, I believe, I’m not in any position to say anything because I’m a human being, just like you. A person who makes mistakes, still figuring out everyday & learn the best from everything. Seriously, after thinking of all the things I said to all my friends, all I can say to myself… “NAT, KAU MACAM PAHAM SIAL.”
For clarification:
- In any case, if anything happened between us, just so you HAVE TO KNOW, even if you BELIEVE that your own measures are just up to the entire universe’s expectations…
I have nothing to do with him ending his relationship with that insane mad woman. NOTHING. (I’ll spell it out to you if you need some lessons.) Maybe insane & mad are already REASON enough to leave a relationship, no?
I feel dumb writing this entry already. I’m gonna stop & to all my girlfriends, I’m not mad at you. I’m just being defensive towards my actions. I believe I have every right to be this way. I can be in denial for all I care, but aren’t you as well?
I can’t change the way you feel about things, so therefore…
- Attentive. Listener. In no position to say anything at all because a third-person view are just judgments unless being asked to judge a situation.
Good night. xx
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